Days 140 - 143

I seem to be quite good at this diet during the week but every weekend things go a bit wrong and temptation gets the better of me. I never go completely crazy and eat lots of cakes and potato though. I have just about enough self-control to steer clear of the carbohydrates but I eat the wrong types of meat and too many vegetables every time. I know I have some willpower, I managed to do 3 months on CD before Xmas by the book pretty much but that level of control seems to elude me these days.

I find the diet really tough when boyfriend is at home. It's not that I can't cope with watching him eat at all, but I've noticed that if I don't cook for him, he doesn't eat very well and because his job is very physical, he gets run down very quickly so I regularly feed him. The problem is, I end up eating some of what I cook half the time. I've tried feeding him on larger portions of things that are OK for me to eat the diet which does work sometimes but when he fancies a bit of pork, lamb or beef, I will quite often eat it too. I'd say my recent weekend diet is a cross between CD and Atkins and has slowed my weight-loss somewhat but hasn't knocked me out of ketosis.

It's a shame I can't behave myself these days, I'm really starting to feel completely different, like my brain is finally catching up with the changes to my body. I'm trying to find some extra part time work at the moment to keep things ticking over while the computer repairs are a bit thin on the ground so I'm going to throw every thing into my job search this week and hope it distracts me from food long enough to have a proper CD week. I know I can have some pretty spectacular results when I do things properly and I know I have it in me somewhere to do that. I'm hoping that the momentum of a good week will be enough to propel me through the weekend without misbehaving.