Days 180 - 182 - CDC Meeting

Things have been up and down again so far this week. I had no work on Monday and again, temptation got the better of me, I only had a little bit of stuffing but it was enough to kick me out of ketosis. I'm seriously disappointed with myself after I'd managed to keep things more or less on track over the weekend but on Tuesday I had another dental appointment and another filling which helped me steer clear of the food and today (Wednesday) I was back in ketosis again.

I had no work today either so I decided to go and hire a scooter for the week so I can have a little more riding practice before I go and do my CBT clutch conversion. Although I can legally ride a geared bike if I want to, I'd feel happier with some extra training and a supervised ride before I buy my own motorbike and go it alone. I went to a really friendly scooter shop in Fulham and hired the 125 version of the scooter I did my CBT on. As I rode away I was pleasantly surprised at how much faster it was than the 50cc version and it took me a little while to get used to the excellent acceleration. I took a very circuitous route back home to Camden thinking I had plenty of time until my CDC meeting but after 1 hour I was still on Edgeware Road getting stuck in traffic. I try to filter through the traffic jams a bit but I'm not confident doing it very often. I'm not quite sure how wide the bike is and some gaps look a bit dangerous to me so I kept it to a minimum and just queued up with all the cars if I didn't feel confident.

I eventually got home at about 5:55, just in time. It had taken me almost an hour and a half to get back but I'd thoroughly enjoyed it, the weather was great and the scooter handled so much better than I expected. My CDC was a little bit late which gave me time to get some tea and relax before my weigh in. Here are the new stats:

• Weight: 14st
  
• BMI: 31.2

It's a poor loss again but it's still better than a gain. I told him how tricky I was finding the diet these days and suggested I tried 810kcals per day for a couple of weeks which he said was pretty much what he was going to suggest to me. He also said that even though my losses have been slow recently, he can really see the change in me, especially in my face which is very encouraging. I must admit the way I'm feeling is still changing even if my weight isn't so much, I still have lots more energy than I used to, I have a general sense of well-being and my poor dodgy knee isn't as painful as it used to be. My weight-loss so far has really helped my self confidence, I would have never got back into motorcycling if it weren't for the diet. However discouraged I feel these days, I'm not quitting CD now and I hope that if I can be a little more consistent with the diet at the 810 level, I may have some better results.

I'm pretty sure I've messed up my mini goal but all is not lost. I might still make it but if not, I promise not to beat myself up too much.