Day 5

I had a really bad night last night due to fighting cats, late dinners and other stresses, I didn't get to sleep until almost 6AM and I didn't wake up until after 11. I lay awake so long last night, I started feeling really hungry, even after the huge dinner, so I was planning what to eat this morning. I decided on the citrus fruits and yoghurt combo and I thought it might be time to try out one of the shake flavours that I thought I might not like. In the morning, Boyfriend came and woke me as soon as he got in from work and was kind enough to make me a big cup of black coffee which helped me perk up quickly despite my lack of sleep (I'm a real 8 hours per night gal) but by time I was feeling alert, I just wasn't feeling hungry at all. I ate a piece of toast thinking that might get my appetite going but it failed and I struggled to finish it so I decided to have my shake right away and worry about proper food at lunchtime. I chose the fruits of the forest flavour, which along with the strawberry and vanilla, was one of the flavours I was not looking forward to trying and it was pretty horrible. I did manage to drink it but it took 25 minutes, my fault for not splitting into 2 smaller servings really. I still have a sachet of it left, I'm going to try and exchange it when I next see my CDC. Ah well, at least I didn't feel ill any more today.

I wasn't hungry enough to eat again until early evening so I had a very late lunch. I had the potato and chickpea salad and a lactose free leek and potato sachet. It was all really delicious but I did feel like I was forcing it down. For the last couple of days I've still been enjoying my food, but I don't really feel hungry during the day, just late at night when I'm supposed to be sleeping. I'm tempted to try out 1000 kcals per day, but as my CDC is away on holiday until next Monday and I don't see my doctor until Tuesday, I must behave myself.

Hang on, I've just realised I'm moaning about having to eat too much!! Huh?

A couple of hours after my late lunch, I started feeling the need to eat something. I knew I wasn't actually hungry, I just really wanted food so I made myself a big, warm mug of the low salt vegetable bouillon and it had a miraculous effect. When I was thinking about doing CD, I joined the forum at www.cambridgedieters.com and that place is great, full of inspiring stories, lovely supportive people and great tips and advice, like the delicious, hunger killing vegetable drinks.

I had the chicken and noodles for my dinner and the portion was so huge I had to check my scales to make sure they hadn't gone wrong, they were completely accurate! I didn't manage to finish all of my meal again, I don't know how much more of this I can take! I might burst!