Day 7

I'm not proud of myself but last night I cheated again. I was trying to sleep but I felt so hungry I just had to eat something, I had 2 oatcakes (the cracker type) with a little sliver of low-fat cheddar on each. I know that's not too bad really in the grand scheme of things, and it's actually quite restrained considering all the food in my house that I could have had instead, but I know I've let myself down and really should have stuck to the food plan yesterday.

Today I've behaved myself a little better than yesterday and had a proper breakfast of citrus fruit and yoghurt, then later in the morning I had a shake sachet. I tried the strawberry flavour, one of the flavours I wasn't looking forward to and it was pretty unpleasant. After one little sip I was ready to throw it away but that's not my style so I put a heaped teaspoonful of cocoa powder in it, blended it again and it was rendered drinkable. I'm not going to do that again though, I'll just save the other 2 strawberry sachets in my 'to trade' pile along with the repulsive fruits of the forest, the weird butterscotch and the too sweet tomato sachets.

I wasn't hungry yet at lunchtime but I ate some potato and chickpea salad anyway and a few hours later I had an oriental chilli soup sachet which was rather nice, it was even better when I chucked in some fresh coriander. After my soup I was thinking about weighing myself and doing a waist measurement but I'm not sure if it's a good idea today. I did lose a few pounds in the first few days but now it's my TOTM and I tend to swell up a bit, if I haven't lost any more weight yet I would feel quite discouraged even if there is good reason for it.

As my evening meal, to celebrate a (hopefully) successful first week on CD, I poached some smoked haddock that had been sitting in my freezer for a couple of weeks. I only had about 150 grammes with plenty of vegetables and I drank an extra litre of water in the hope that it would balance the saltiness of the fish. So that'll be over 4 litres of water today once I've finished the pint in front of me.

So my first week on CD is drawing to a close and I'm surprised at how much it's changed the way I feel. After my doctors appointment next Tuesday, I'll know if I'm allowed to progress to a lower calorie step very soon, or whether I'll have to lose another stone or so on 1200kcals which might take me some time.