Day 126

I feel a lot better today than I have in a while, in fact I feel pretty positive for a change. I woke up very early this morning after an 11 hour sleep feeling incredibly well rested for the first time in a couple of weeks. I jumped on the scales first thing when I got up and found I was below the 15 stone mark again which means that come next official weigh-in, I should be comfortably in the 14s and I can't even begin to explain how excited I feel about that! I've made a pledge to myself to play it by the book this week and see how well I can do. All the encouraging things my CDC was telling me yesterday were really starting to sink in today and I feel happy about how much weight I've managed to lose so far. It may be coming off a little slowly at the moment but it's still coming off and it'll probably come off a little faster now I'm feeling more in control.

As the day wore on I realised that I wasn't feeling half as hungry as I have been lately so maybe my difficult phase is over, and not a moment too soon. Over the last 2 weeks I was having more cheating days than good CD-er days and only the guilt of my bad behaviour was preventing me from losing the plot completely. Today I feel refreshed and positive and am starting to feel like my weight goals are achievable again. To further push the point, I decided to try on some of the clothes I was wearing at the start of this diet with hilarious results. I knew that my favourite striped trousers would fall right off so I tried on some jeans that were a little too tight when I was at my largest and they too fell right off in a comical fashion. I tried on a couple of tops too but the effect isn't so spectacular as my bust doesn't appear to have shrunk at all yet.

Feeling buoyed by my comical trouser experience I treated myself to a SS+ appropriate chicken portion for breakfast followed by a cappuccino mousse with a sprinkle of cinnamon. The mousse turned out so delicious I made my boyfriend taste it and he was pretty impressed too. I had a cranberry bar at lunchtime and because I didn't have any veg with my chicken, I dry-fried them with a few herbs and spices and turned my last soup of the day into a 2 course meal. I spread my food across the day enough to not feel deprived at all and I feel so relieved to have got through the day without even feeling tempted to cheat.

My last goal of the day is to stay awake late enough for EastEnders.... nearly there!