Days 50 - 52

My plan for Thursday night/Friday morning went a bit wrong, I failed to stay awake much past 7am and then only slept for 4 hours. I was feeling so tired I ended up passing out a few hours later and having a 3 hour nap. I did get a fair amount of crochet done though, I've made a decent amount of progress on a little handbag that has been sitting half made on my coffee table for months and I also did a a few rows on a blanket I started making late spring. I got half way through it in the summer and then got bored, I figured now is a good time to finish it seeing as I'm so flipping cold all the time these days. I didn't quite get round to doing any actual work though. There isn't a fixed deadline on this project, but I need to just get on with it because I find it easy to lose the flow of creative things when I don't just get on with it.

By about 1am Friday night/Saturday morning, I was feeling exhausted so I went off to get a bit of sleep. It was an almost normal time to go to sleep and I was feeling quite pleased, but when 7am came around and I still hadn't had a wink of sleep I started to get a bit annoyed. Eventually, boyfriend got bored of watching me pacing up and down and went out for a walk and I finally managed to get to sleep at around 8:30am. I planned just to nap for a couple of hours so both my alarms were set for 10:30 and I managed to sleep through them both again and eventually woke up after lunchtime to find the boyfriend had fallen asleep on the sofa. I spent most of that afternoon trying to think of something fun and distracting I could do without causing further damage to me knee but eventually I just left the house with no plan as the smell of boyfriend's roast dinner was sending me insane. I really should have thought it through a bit better because I was out for ages and ended up eating some prawns. What a fool! I guess it could have been worse, I managed to bypass all the sandwiches and just had the prawns and some extra water to try and balance out the saltiness.

While I was out, I also managed to find a rather nice pair of cheap and cheerful, smart-ish trousers that were just slightly too small for me to replace the ones I usually wear which are now at that almost falling right off stage. I don't want to buy too many clothes in my in-between sizes but I can't really get away with wearing jeans all the time, especially when I go and see new clients. I need to at least have a veneer of respectability, even if the bright green hair is a dead give-away! I do have a few smart skirts to wear but they aren't very good when I'm on my knees with my bum in the air, crawling under desks and fiddling with computers.

On Sunday morning I managed to get 3 hours sleep and woke up at 8:30am with an uncontrollable craving for rare steak. Red meat is one of the most common menstrual cravings I have, along with spinach, kale and other dark greens. For me it's more common than craving chocolate and seeing as my TOTM has been going on for a couple of weeks now I though it would be a good idea to try and fulfil this particular craving so I had an iron tablet. Unfortunately it didn't make me feel any better at all and I ended up having a small piece of griddled rare steak a few hours later which really hit the spot. I'm going to have to go and see my doctor very soon about this, I think I might be getting as bit anaemic around my TOTM, they seem to be going on for ages and unnaturally heavy too. I'm sure it's not caused by CD because it's been a problem on and off for many years but the last 3 months has been worse than ever before, I've been feeling really tired but not getting enough solid sleep and the food cravings I'm getting are totally uncontrollable.

I had to take a nap in the afternoon again and I slept for about 5 hours I think. I woke up late in the evening and had to work hard to remember where I was with my sachet and water consumption. This last few days have been so confusing, I think I've had more than enough to drink but I get the feeling I'm a few sachets behind but I can't be sure. I've just had a broccoli and cheese soup sachet and sneakily added a nugget of frozen spinach to it to try and calm my iron craving. I checked the packaging carefully and each of those little nuggets of chopped spinach contain about 5kcals and o.14g of carbs so I think I can safely get away with this without it really counting as a cheat.

Despite all my cheating and messing about this weekend, I've still been in ketosis the whole time and I've lost 2 or 3 lbs since my unofficial weigh-in on Wednesday. Imagine how much weight I could lose if I actually stuck to the plan properly!