Day 20

Last night I had yet another early-ish night and shockingly early morning. I managed to sleep for almost 5 hours which may be enough for some people, but it really isn't enough for me. I spent the entire day feeling overtired, bad-tempered, hungry and downright weird.

I woke up just after 3am feeling really hungry and had a soup sachet within a few minutes but it didn't really help so I spent a few hours trying to ignore the loud noises my stomach was making and forget how hungry I was. In fact I worked so hard at it I actually forgot about breakfast! Luckily that meant I could combine it with lunch, I had a boiled egg, some toast and some salad and saved my lunchtime sachet until mid-afternoon when I mixed a warm chocolate shake with some instant coffee. It was the only thing I could do to keep myself awake long enough for dinner.

Tomorrow is my last day on 1000kcals, and it'll be quite exciting to move down to the next step; 810kcals, I'll be moving slightly closer to the more rapid losses that are possible on SS. I'm still quite worried about it though because this step has been way harder than I thought it would. I was fine at the start of the week but I've found it harder and harder every day and I'm starting to feel like I'm being tortured. I finished my dinner 1 hour ago and I feel starving already....

I'm not giving up and I'm not rushing into SS like I said I would, I may be feeling horrible but it's making me feel more determined than ever.