Day 43 - Breakthrough

Several times over the last week I've mentioned how much more energetic I feel compared to my pre-CD self and today was no exception. I didn't have to go out to work today, I was supposed to be doing a bit of research for someone but I couldn't sit still long enough to get anything done at all! I bounced around the flat randomly starting various household tasks and then getting distracted and wandering off. I started loads of things but finished nothing because I really just wanted to go out but had nowhere to go. I know a lot of ladies would go out window shopping or something but I hate real shopping more than enough and non-buying shopping is a total waste of time as far as I'm concerned.

Despite my boredom today, I wasn't tempted to eat once! I went out to the supermarket very briefly to grab a few essentials and bought some of boyfriend's favourite foods without feeling hard-done-by even for a second, I didn't even take a detour round the supermarket to look at all my favourite things that I couldn't have. I really feel like I've reached a level of comfort with this diet, it just feels normal. I remember reaching a similar mindset when I gave up smoking, it was the feeling of not having to try hard not to smoke any-more, one day I just felt like I was a non-smoker and that's not dissimilar to the way I feel about CD now. I have had the occasional panicked moment since I started CD, when I think of how much weight I have to lose but as I'm about ¼ of the way there now, I can actually see my goal in my mind's eye, and it's getting closer!

I'm a bit embarrassed about how worried and miserable I felt yesterday. I blame my hormones.